imwithjonas's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Friends FriendsThe series is almost over, and about damn time. But as anyone with a functioning brain would surmise, that's not what this is about. I've had several super-close friends over the years. At the time, I thought each of them was perfectly unique-a true once in a lifetime friend. Looking back, they all seem to have had the same qualities. None of them seem to have been particularly life-changing over the years. I'm sure they had some effect, and I still appreciate the time I had with each of them. I just don't feel that they changed me. After they had wandered out of my life, I was essentially the same person I had been before I met them. I think I've broken that pattern. I can honestly say that the person I spend all my time with now is the best friend I've ever had. If I ever meet a better person I'll be quite shocked. My best friend has an absolutely perfect sense of humor. He has the greatest grammatical skill of anyone I have ever met. No matter what he's writing about, it's so well written you could cry tears of inexplicable joy. He is wonderfully caring and considerate. He's amazingly straight-forward and has absolutely no sense of propriety, which is just fine with me. He can make me laugh without saying a word and is completely unashamed to cry in front of me. His hugs heal all my heartaches (I don't wanna hear about the cheesy alliteration) and remind me that someone always cares. Things are scary and a little painful right now, but we both know everything will be all right. We've finally come to the point that we have to take a step back, but with a minimum of tears we came to a basic understanding. This will get better. It's likely to get worse first, but it will eventually get better. Hell, we knew that all along. But I panicked for a moment in there somewhere. He just talked me through it. He can talk me through anything. Now I have to hold it together for him. For him, things are a lot scarier than they are for me. I have to get a grip for his sake. All he needs is a little support and a lot of me not breaking down. I absolutely love him and hope I never let him down. A true friend is someone who can say "You're the best friend I've ever had," when he's trying his hardest just to keep things together. Now it's my turn to do what I can. Everyone has something they turn to when they need help. Some people have God. Some people have family. Some people have liquor, or drugs, or a job to throw themselves into. I have Pat, and among a handful of other people, he has me. Things will get better. 6:33 p.m. - May 03, 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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