imwithjonas's Diaryland Diary
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Death and sex
Death
and sex
I was in another quizzy mood.
 | You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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So, yeah. I'm both frightened and amused.
In other news, I'm working on my own quiz. I'm excited. It will rank people on the scale of trick - girl/boy friend. It should kick all kinds of ass by the time I finish it.
Life has become less confusing. I've talked with someone I needed to talk with. I understand what I mean to this person and can thereby judge what he should mean to me. Life is good.
Also, I think that buying a tube of toothpaste is like the equivalent of rent for me. I find that to be quite awesome. My DOC (Dear Orange Companion, if you've forgotten or I never actually used that as I had once intended to) is awesome. He's my favorite orange cremesaver colored person.
And I'm just going to come right out and say this. If sucking dick in a barbershop bathroom makes me slutty, then I am. There's really no point in trying to defend myself. Go ahead and judge me. My closest friends do, so random people might as well. All I can say is that it sounded like a good idea at the time. Also, it was the shortest period of time such activity ever lasted. I haven't quite figured out if that means anything. It was just an interesting bit of information I figured I'd impart.
I'm also starting to doubt my abilities along those lines. Along all sex lines, really. I have yet to harbor any delusions that I'm particularly adept at the actual sex act (aka: fucking). I haven't had much experience and I really just don't think I'm that great.
Now oral sex is a completely different matter. For reasons that only God (if he/she exists) will ever know, I can apparently suck dick like nobody's business. Or at least I could. I'm thinking that I either didn't give a sterling performance last time around or someone is doing a better job than me. Damn these nagging insecurities.
But seriously, if you're in a "relationship" in which sex is just sex, then it should be damn good sex. If there are no special emotional connotations, the physical act should be beyond amazing. It should be worth having. I know what I'm saying even if no one else does.
But hey, at least I'm getting laid, right?
11:26 p.m. - April 12, 2005
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